Merry Something To You Too!!

Monday afternoon, 2 days before Christmas... I sit in my chair at my desk, at work!!
Who was the idiot that invented work around Christmas??
Who the fuck works??
Except for the IT guys maybe... but even they have no idea on what planet they are... classic for IT people ;))...
I am not a huge fan of Holidays, but one thing I love for sure... the food!! And the tree of course, and the lights... well... everything is nice about Christmas, WHEN you’re NOT Working!!
The thing I love the most when it comes to Holidays is my depression. It's not that I have no crappy bf, or my family close these days, the only thing that bugs me is that I am not a millionaire yet!! I mean, what is the point of having all these celebrations days if you have not the money to enjoy them?
What??? I wouldn’t look good on a beach in Hawaii? My skin could not support the Caribbean sun?? My body wouldn’t stand the tropical heat??
And let’s not talk about the affairs I could have with the aborigines :)).

My depression is always one and the same.
And... unlike others... I find it more real than to find myself in a stupid depression that I have no bf, or my family is not the way I wanted, or my friends don’t love me, or my job sucks, or my pay check is so small I can’t by myself a popsicle.
These items are for day to day depression, like the day to day excuse of feeling sorry for myself, not my case anymore, I have ages of experience and those moments turned to be seconds of quick rage in time.

So... What do you do for Christmas?
Stay home and cry in your pants that your life sucks and you’re a loser, remembering all the moments when you’ve failed this past year, while you stick junk food in you faster than my typing speed, thinking about your sorry ass life and looking at the dark future where you can only predict more ugly things coming to you???
Well good luck being a dumb ass!!
Or, maybe you go to every party that you are invited, so that you can prove yourself that you are not alone, and your so called friends are the best thing ever (for like 30 min. , after you get bored and you’re back to your depression).

Or, you just wait to see what happens, miracles may exist (for those who have definitely read too many Cinderella stories ). And, maybe not a miracle, but if anything happens, then you may chose you way of spending Christmas evening so that you’ll end up feeling just as good on the day after (morning i.e.).

Or... You can choose my way, do what you usually do but with more feeling: eat, drink, dance and get as lazy and crazy as possible (you have an excuse – it’s actually Christmas), take some hours to put a globe in the Christmas Tree (is it blue this year, or green, or is it yellow time?? – who cares?? – I do!! Symmetry is the key!! And that until the second glass of wine, after randomize is the new house rule.)
Entertainment will sure appear, there is no year without crazy invitations to parties – home or club, and from all there is to do you can choose to just stay home and see the next best movie ever made (with the usual French red wine attached - it can be very relaxing).

For all of you that have Holiday depression, remember this: any holiday is not the excuse to victimise yourselves, there are other that have not even half of what you enjoy every day, THEY DO have a reason to cry!!
It’s not anybody’s fault that you cannot bear to see yourself in the mirror or that you have not the power to make any changes in your life, so please, spear us from the pain of seeing your dummy sad face in the only days when the only excuse aloud is that to smile like a dumb ass after you erase all the alcohol that you were not suppose to drink it only by yourself!!

Enjoy my dears, a Merry Merry Christmas and an even Merrier Happy New Year!!
May that next year they discover I am the long lost daughter of Onassis, or Trump, Gates is good too!!

Cheers My Ladies!!
Cheers My Guys!!
Tomorrow is a new year!!